Sunday, May 28, 2017

Today I Saw A Man Die

Today, I saw a man die, silently inhaling one final time. I witnessed the mourning wife, her husband taken away from her too soon.

Today, I watched as the heart monitor slowly went from 100 to 70 to 60 to 40, and finally, to 0. I saw our team standing next to this man, silently, knowing there is nothing we could do, but also not wanting him to die alone.

Today, this man’s life ended as we helplessly watched and comforted. Because that’s what medicine is about. It’s not about being a hero. It’s not about the salary. It’s about being there in the time of need for your patient, even if it means standing next to them as they tragically, yet peacefully pass away.

Today, I saw a team of healthcare professionals silently mourn before declaring death. Yet I also saw beauty in an amazing team of nurses and EMTs clean this man before they took him away.

Today, the world keeps spinning for me. Because there are more patients in need and more work to be done. But as my world keeps spinning, I can’t help but wonder, will this family’s world keep spinning or will it come crashing down on them, like so many families before them?

Tomorrow is a mystery. I may witness more tragedy or I may witness beauty. The only thing that is for sure, is today. And in Haiti, sometimes that’s not even a sure thing.

A 40-year-old man passed away today. It’s only 10am. How’s your today?


Wednesday, August 19, 2015

4 Stories From Haiti: A Week in the Life of a Project MediShare Volunteer

                I would like to tell you four stories. Four stories from my most recent trip in Haiti that I believe encompasses both what this country is like and why I continue to come back time after time. The first two stories I’m going to share are stories that happen too often, however are not told often enough. They are stories that I wish I didn’t have to tell. Stories I wish didn’t exist. But the sad fact is that these stories do exist. And too often do we turn a blind eye and forget about these stories. But what I’ve seen and experienced I cannot un-see. And most importantly, I cannot stay silent and turn a blind eye to these stories. After the first two stories, I promise the last two stories are much more uplifting. These last two stories show why I continue to come back to this country and why I believe there is still hope for this country.
Emergency Room at Bernard Mevs
                The first story I’m going to share is about a 36 year old husband-to-be. This man (whose name I won’t mention for obvious reasons) was all set to get married to his fiancĂ© in 2 weeks. As I’m sure many of us have done, he was spending the afternoon with friends playing some pick-up basketball. Suddenly he began to feel something unusual. In the middle of his game the entire right side of his body suddenly became weak, half of his face began to droop, and he lost the ability to speak coherently. Classic signs of a stroke. Realizing what he was going through, he and his wife raced to our hospital for treatment. He arrived into our emergency room less than an hour after the symptoms began, which was incredibly impressive considering the traffic in Haiti. Our team quickly realized that this was most likely a stroke patient. Now for those who don’t know, there are two main types of strokes: ischemic and hemorrhagic. An ischemic stroke means that there is a blood clot somewhere in the brain that is blocking part of the brain from getting blood. A hemorrhagic stroke means that there is a blood vessel bleeding out somewhere in the brain. Both types of stroke have the potential of being fatal, however a drug called TPA, if given within the first 3-4 hours of the onset of symptoms, can potentially reverse the effects of an ischemic stroke. However if TPA is given and the stroke is hemorrhagic, the patient will die. It is fairly easy to tell the difference between the two types of strokes with a scan of the brain, called a CT scan. These scans are very common in the United States and can be found in practically every hospital. In Haiti however, our hospital has one of the only CT scanners in the country. There are a few other scanners scattered throughout the country, however none of them give as much detail as our hospital.
                Now that you have a little background information, back to the story. After confirming that the patient was most likely suffering from a stroke our next step was to get him a CT scan. The CT scan would be able to tell if his stroke was ischemic, which is what we suspected. If it was, he could have been given TPA and his symptoms would have likely decreased or even completely disappeared. We could have then discharged him and he would have been on his merry way to get married.
                Unfortunately it didn’t work out like that. When we tried to get him to CT, we were told that the CT scanner wasn’t working. The air conditioner had failed in the scanner and we couldn’t use it without the scanner overheating. There was no way to get a CT scan of his head until the next morning, which was clearly past our 4 hour window of delivering TPA. The only other option was to transfer him to another hospital with the CT scanner so he could get one there. In the states that would have been easy. Here though, there was nowhere nearby that had a CT scanner. We were stuck. We suspected an ischemic stroke but there was no way to verify that. We were now faced with an impossibly difficult question: Do we give the patient TPA and risk him dying? Or do we not do anything and allow the right side of his body to be paralyzed for the rest of his life? This is one of the most difficult decisions to make. Eventually the doctors decided that they couldn’t risk killing the patient by giving him TPA. So we did nothing. We sat by helplessly watching his wife-to-be sitting by the bedside, holding his hand while he attempted to move his right arm. He kept trying and trying and I kept hoping that he’d somehow be able to move it. But it never happened. That’s when I realized the saddest part of this whole situation. I realized the wedding they were supposed to have would never happen. This man would never walk again. He would never work again. He may not even make it out of a hospital ever again. His life had been completely and abruptly shattered. All because the air conditioner overheated and they couldn’t repair it until the morning. Someone has to be held accountable for that. But who? You want to hold the repairman accountable but when you’re getting paid less than $1/hour, what sort of incentive do you have to come and repair the scanner? You want to hold the hospital accountable for not having a backup plan but how is the hospital supposed to have a backup plan and keep their prices low when they barely have enough money to run at normal capacity? You want to hold the people paying accountable for the hospital being so unprofitable but how can you hold someone who makes $1/day accountable for paying when a CT scan costs $200? These are questions I have no answer to. There is no simple answer to these questions. If there was, these wouldn’t be questions.
                So now the moral question comes into play. Did we make the correct decision by not giving the patient TPA? Doctor’s take a Hippocratic Oath to ‘do no harm’. If he were to die, would the doctors have just done harm to the patient? It’s an incredibly difficult question. One that has no clear correct answer. I will leave it to you to answer the question for yourselves. My opinion: they made the right call. It was a call they shouldn’t have had to make though
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(A CT scan performed the next day confirmed that the stroke was in fact ischemic)

                This brings me to my second story; this patient being significantly younger than the patient in the first story. So young in fact that he didn’t even have a name yet. And unfortunately he will never get a name. Haiti has one of the highest infant mortality rates in the world at 55 per 1,000 live births. While this is an incredibly high number, I have a problem with statistics; they’re not personal. On this trip, that statistic just became personal.
Courtyard of Bernard Mevs
 It was around 10PM and I was about to head to sleep. Before I went to bed though I walked to the emergency room where my friend Kylie, who came with me, was working. The second I stepped into the Emergency Room I noticed it was quite chaotic. I asked if they needed an extra hand and they gladly accepted my help. After performing and ECG on one patient, the nurse asked me to run across the courtyard and grab a suction unit from the ICU because they were in the process of intubating a patient. After the doctor successfully intubated the patient I brought the suction unit back to the ICU. I decided I’d check back into the ER real quick to see if they needed anything else. When I opened the door I noticed someone sitting to my left who I had not noticed previously. He was very calmly sitting on a chair with no expression on his face. He must have just gotten there, I thought. There was something weird about the situation though. In his lap was a giant bucket, one of those that kind of looked like a mini swimming pool, full of blankets. I decided to investigate a little further and as I went over to him I saw exactly what I didn’t want to see. Coming out of the bundle of blankets was a face not bigger than my closed fist. Quickly I turned to the nurse and asked if she had noticed this man sitting in the corner with a baby. A look of panic rushed across her face and she said no. We quickly rushed over to treat this baby. As we uncovered the baby we realized that it appeared blue. Immediately I ran and grabbed one of the doctors on our trip. When I came back they already had the baby lying on a table and were performing rescue breaths and compressions. Quickly I joined in, helping wherever I could. This baby, which still had its umbilical cord attached to it, was incredibly premature (about 25-28 weeks). We performed rescue breaths and chest compressions on the baby and eventually we were able to successfully resuscitate the baby. We quickly brought him to the NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) where they prepared a bed for him. During this whole time, we were manually breathing for the baby using a device called a BVM. Unfortunately whenever we stopped, the baby’s oxygen saturation would drop, meaning it was not breathing enough. Thankfully we were able to intubate the baby and find a ventilator to put it on.
 At this point our spirits were high. We had just brought a baby back from the brink of death and we had a free ventilator to put the baby on (there’s only 4 in the entire hospital). We began thinking that this baby may actually have a fighting chance to survive. We starting getting the ventilator ready only to have our spirits crushed. As we tried to get the ventilator ready we realized that the ventilator doesn’t have a low enough pressure setting to use on neonates. The respiratory therapist who was on our trip tried every possible setting on the ventilator but every time we attached the baby to the ventilator, its saturation would drop and we’d have to BVM the baby again. Our spirits were broken. We had done everything possible to give this baby a fighting chance and it was going to die because we didn’t have a pediatric ventilator. We tried to brainstorm any possible solution but eventually a silence came over the NICU. There was nothing more we could do.  We knew what we had to do. We had to let this baby die. We tried one last-ditch effort to put him on oxygen and give him IV caffeine. This seemed to work, but we all knew it was a temporary fix. This baby was going to die and there was nothing we could do about it. We told the father, who was watching the entire thing and slowly, one by one, we left the NICU, giving our condolences to the father. 3 hours of effort and the baby was going to die because we didn’t have the resources. Sure enough, by morning the baby was taken off the monitor and passed away. His official death certificate may say that his cause of death was respiratory failure but this baby died of something else. He died of inequality and poverty. The only reason that this baby didn’t have a chance at surviving was because he was born in Haiti.
Often when dealing with death you can justify it by saying “it was their time”, “they lived a good life” or “there was nothing more we could do”. But how in the world do you justify an hour old baby dying BECAUSE OF A LACK OF RESOURCES? This wasn’t God’s will. This wasn’t it’s time to die. This baby didn’t have a chance to live. There is no way of justifying the death of this baby. The saddest part of this all is that this isn’t a rare story. Over 5% of babies never live to see their 1st birthday. Imagine that. And it’s well known that number is underreported. The only slight comfort that you can take in this is that if this baby was in the states, it only would have had a 50-60% chance of survival because it was so premature. But that’s a hell of a lot higher than the 0.001% chance it had in Haiti. That may provide comfort to some, but not to me. There are no (appropriate) words I can use to describe how sick that makes me. No one should have to die solely because of where they were born.
Port Au Prince from above
Now that I’ve told you about some of the sad stories I’ve encountered in Haiti, I’d like to shift gears now and end on a much more upbeat note. The first story I’d like to tell is one of the few “wins” we were able to get while we were in Haiti. It was one of the few times we were actually able to make a save.
It was around noon when it all began. My dad and I were catching up with one of the employees we’ve become close to, Jocelyn, and his son when I first heard the sirens. I looked back over towards the gates just as the guard peered out to see what the sirens were for. Instantly after he looked out he swung the gates open and in drove a truck with the words ‘police’ on the sides. I immediately started heading on over and told my dad that I’d wave him over if we needed him. They opened the back of the truck, I peered in and took about a half of a look in the back and instantly waved him over. It wasn’t even the patient that made me wave him over. What made me wave him over was the blood. There was blood everywhere. It was dripping from the patient onto the floor, creating a huge pool of blood that was now dripping out of the car. Immediately we got a stretcher and pulled the patient from the back of the truck onto our stretcher. With bloodied gloves I helped push our patient into the Emergency Room so we could figure out where he was bleeding from. Right away we hooked him up to the monitors and obtained his vital signs. They weren’t very good. His pulse was normal, however he had lost a great deal of blood and had a blood pressure around 80/50. We quickly found that the bleeding was coming from two spots: a deep laceration on his right arm as well as another one near the left side of his neck. My dad quickly asked the prison doctor what happened, but unfortunately the doctor didn’t speak any English. Luckily though he had spent 4 years studying medicine in Cuba so he was completely fluent in Spanish. In Spanish I asked the doctor what had happened. The doctor told me that this man was a prison guard and one of the prisoners had tried to murder him with a “knife-like object”. He was slashed in his right arm and near his left neck. The doctor approximated that he had lost over a liter of blood, possibly close to two liters during the time that he was slashed and 30 minutes later when he arrived at the gates. I quickly told this to my dad and he decided that we needed to expose the lacerations in order to see what we were up against. We exposed the one on the arm first. It was a deep laceration but nothing that was immediately life-threatening. The neck was next. As we took the bandaging off we began to get a sense of how much blood there was. These bandages were soaked in blood. Eventually we fully exposed the laceration and sure enough it was bleeding an impressive amount. “Luckily” he was slashed right along the jaw line so it missed his jugular vein and carotid artery entirely. A few centimeters down and this man would have bled out in 60 seconds. It had still hit an artery though and there was still a chance for him to bleed out. He needed a surgeon quickly. But there was no surgeon on staff that day. They quickly made a few calls and got the surgeon to start coming. It was still going to be awhile though. We were now faced with the task of trying to stop the bleeding as much as possible until the surgeons arrived. Unfortunately we didn’t have quite as many resources to do this as we do in the states. So how do you stop an arterial bleed in Haiti with no trauma dressings? Well with diapers of course! We quickly grabbed a clean diaper and I immediately put pressure on his wound. About 15 minutes after starting to hold the wound we got some bad news. Turns out there was a shooting in the area and the one street the surgeons needed to use to get down to the hospital was blocked off. A look of both panic and sadness swept over the patient’s face, who was conscious the entire time. We started thinking about transferring him to a different hospital, which was our only other option. Unfortunately we couldn’t get ahold of the other hospital right away. Meanwhile even with my best efforts of stopping the bleeding, our patient continued to lose blood. After about 45 minutes of holding the wound the police, realizing the gravity of the situation, offered to go get the surgeons from their house and bring them back. They did so and finally, over an hour after initially putting pressure on the wound the surgeons arrived. They quickly took a look at the patient and began preparing the operating room. Half an hour later we began wheeling the patient across the courtyard to the operating room. Once they were ready we wheeled him into the operating room, all while Kylie and I continued to hold pressure on his wound. They quickly intubated the patient and once the surgeons had their tools in their hands, one of the surgeons told me to let go. Immediately, like a geyser, blood began to spurt from the wound. The surgeons quickly suctioned the wound, found the artery, and clamped it closed. Finally, after nearly 2 hours of direct pressure the artery was clamped and my job was done. With cramped and sore fingers I left the operating room and headed back to the emergency room. About an hour later we got some much needed good news. The surgery was successful and the patient was going to do just fine. It was a much needed win at the end of a week with way too much sadness.
The last story I want to share is a relatively short story. It has nothing to do with practicing medicine, however it is one that gives me hope. It gives me hope not only for Haiti. It gives me inspiration to push through and try to make a difference. It’s the story of a few dedicated individuals armed with nothing but a dream who are making that dream a reality.
First Responder class taught by EMPACT Haiti
When I first started coming to Haiti I worked with a number of Haitian EMTs. All of these EMTs began working at the hospital as translators and later got trained as EMTs. There are a number of them that I am close with but one in particular that I am very close with, Pierre. When I first met Pierre I instantly realized how great of a medic he was. He was not only incredibly knowledgeable, but he also cared. This trip I had the honor of going across the road with him to visit an EMT/first responder class that was taught by Pierre and a few of the other Haitian EMTs. It was incredible to see a classroom packed full of students, both males and females, excited to learn about how they can help others. The group that teaches these EMT students is a group known as EMPACT Haiti. They were founded and are run by the EMTs that I work with in Haiti. To date they have trained over 1,000 Haitians to be first responders and EMTs. Pierre had me stand up in front of the class and provide some “words of inspiration” to them. Little did they know, it was them who was inspiring me. Pierre and a number of other EMTs are now also part of the first air ambulance service in Haiti. Seeing this gave me such hope for this country and the people. It just goes to show that with a dream and unwavering dedication, even in the face of failure and adversity, anything can be achieved. That small moment made my connection to Haiti even stronger and it gave me even more motivation to continue down a path of global health.
Well there you have it. It was a long post but hopefully this gave you a better idea of how complex of a question it is when someone asks me “how was Haiti?” Haiti is an incredible country but it is also full of sadness and tragedy.  I’m not going to end this post with a nice bow-tied message. I think the message of this speaks for itself. Until my next adventure.

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Sunday, December 21, 2014

Haiti Mon Amour Part III: The story of Dahicha

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As I prepare myself to go back to Haiti on the 23rd of December, I am both excited and terrified. Ever since I stepped foot there, I’ve been addicted. I think about it all the time. It haunts my dreams and makes me smile at the same time. Still to this day the pink headband haunts my dreams. What I wrote about the first time I was in Haiti, I can barely talk about. Yet I keep going back. Looking back on my writings, I realize I have focused mainly about the bad things about my experience. Much of that reason is because negative experiences vastly outnumber the positive experiences. “Then why go back?” people ask. I go back because the small, good things that happen, make all the pain worth it. I ended my last post by promising to talk about that good thing; the baby our team desperately tried to save. So here is that story.

If you’re expecting a story full of sunshine and rainbows, you’re not going to find that here. This is still a story from Haiti. This isn’t a Hollywood movie and the fact is that 20 months before this story, this could have all been prevented with proper care. But enough about the negatives, this is a story of joy. On January 27th, 2013 an incredible gift to the world was born. This gift has been an inspiration to my life ever since I came into contact with her. It was the night of August 14th or 15th when Dahicha came into triage, suffering from an Upper Respiratory Infection. I had just returned from the UN for dinner and popped my head into triage to see if anyone needed help. What I saw was multiple people huddling around a tiny baby. I went over to see what was going on and what I saw was an incredibly dehydrated baby that needed fluids ASAP. This was a very sick baby and there was a good chance that if we didn’t get fluids into her very soon, she would die. In addition, there was no room to put her in the peds ward because it was full to capacity, so she’d have to stay in triage. She needed an IV in her, and she needed that IV hours ago. Unfortunately there was no way to get an IV into her because we couldn’t find her veins. We tried for hours to get an IV in with no luck. At least 5 different people tried on her arms, legs, hands, and even feet. We spent hours trying to find a vein. Finally, at around 2 A.M, about 4 hours after this fiasco began, we got flashback. We had found the vein. We were all so relieved and ready to go to bed but just as I began to flush (putting a little saline into the IV), we felt an edema begin to form around her IV. A sign that we had blown her vein, or in other words, we no longer had access to her vein. Sadly, we had lost access to her vein about as quickly as we realized we had access. I felt awful. Looking back on it, it wasn’t necessarily my fault we blew her IV as it is a very common thing to happen, but it was me that was flushing it so I felt responsible for us losing access. I was determined not to lose this baby girl. At this point, she was in such poor condition that poking her with IVs wouldn’t make her cry. We tried for another 2 hours to gain IV access, with no luck. At that point it was clear we were going to have to call it a night and come up with a new strategy in the morning. Grudgingly, I headed to bed, the only thing I was hoping was that she’d still be there in the morning…something that at that moment was no sure thing. I think it goes without saying that I had a rather restless 3 hours of ‘sleep’.

 Photo Credit: Marla Camapau Drowley. Facebook
                At 6:45 that morning I got up for my shift and quickly made my way out hoping that she’d still be there. To my relief she was sleeping very comfortably and her health hadn’t deteriorated any further during the short night. Now it was crunch time. It was time to come up with a new plan to save Dahicha. We again tried for a bit to get an IV in her, once again with no luck. It was at that point I decided I was going to look for an alternative option. There had been an idea floating around about starting an IO, which basically entails drilling into a bone just below her knee cap to get access to the bone marrow. This process, as gruesome as it sounds and is, can basically function as an IV. The only problem is that we couldn’t find a pediatric IO. We had searched almost everywhere and couldn’t find one. But it was our only chance. So I went on a mission to find one. After about 30 minutes of searching and asking just about everyone, I was about ready to give up. But thankfully I asked one more person. One of the Haitian EMT/translators was pretty sure there was one in the emergency room. My heart began to race as I thought this might actually be a chance to save this girl. We quickly went to the ER where, perched perfectly in the corner of the top shelf, was EXACTLY what we had been looking for. It was such a relief, but there was no time to celebrate. This was just the first step in a long process. I hurried back to triage where ‘Dr. Zeke’ started the IO. We had access! Finally, about 12 hours later we would be able to get fluids into her system. It may have been too late though. Her condition had worsened. At this point she was teetering on the edge. She had become completely unresponsive. Every time I checked on her, I was worried she wasn’t going to be around anymore. But she kept fighting. Every time I checked on her, she was still fighting.

                Later in the afternoon, I borrowed one of the Haitian nurses, who Dr. Sam (my dad) claims may be the “best IV starter he’s ever seen” to come try to start an IV on Dahicha. Finally, after an hour of trying, and 21 hours after getting to the hospital, we had started an IV through her jugular on her neck. We pushed fluids through her to rehydrate her and slowly she gained back her color and actually began crying again. The good news, we had started an IV and hydrated her. The bad news, we had spent a whole day trying to save her and get IV access so we were a day behind on actually treating the reason she was here, severe pneumonia.

                I monitored Dahicha as much as I could. Every free moment I could find, I would be in the pediatric ward, making sure she was alright. On multiple occasions she became low on oxygen so I would run around to find a new tank for her. They started her on antibiotics but her pneumonia was so severe that she still wasn’t out of the clear. In addition, due to incidents during and directly after her birth, she had a number of other health issues that required other medications.

                On Sunday, when I left she was still not out of the clear. She had definitely improved, however she was still in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit (PICU). Saying goodbye to her was one of the most difficult things I’ve had to do. I had done all I could though. And she was such a fighter that as worried as I was about her, I knew deep down, she’d fight through this. Still, saying goodbye to someone you spent so much energy on, not knowing if you’ll ever see them again is always hard. I knew her for 4 days but I already loved her. For the next two weeks I went back and forth over whether I should contact the owners of the orphanage she lived at. I knew that if I did and she didn’t make it, I’d be beyond devastated. Ultimately though, I needed to know. So after 2 weeks, I added her on Facebook. And then I waited. And I waited. Finally, after a day or two, I got a notification that my friend request had been accepted. This was it.

                As I logged on, preparing for the worst, I was greeted with a wave of relief when I saw that she had been steadily improving and was actually having surgery soon to insert a tube into her stomach. This was incredible news and put a smile on my face for the rest of the day. A couple weeks later, I was greeted by an even better message. Dahicha had gotten a medical VISA to be seen in the US. It was an incredible turn of events and truly inspirational. To make things even better, I will hopefully be seeing Dahicha while I am in Haiti next week. I am convinced that had it not been for the incredible determination and hard work of our team as well as the Haitian staff at Bernard Mevs hospital, Dahicha’s outcome may not have been so great. I also would like to recognize in this post, the orphanage that she is at and the people running the orphanage. Never, and I mean NEVER did they leave her side during this entire time. Marla, Ken, and Jocelin, you are all incredibly inspirational. And for the people reading this, I’m not asking for you to donate money to any cause, but I have seen first-hand how much these people care for the kids at the orphanage and it is inspirational. If you are looking for a cause to donate to, consider this orphanage. Here is the website of the orphanage if you’re interested in learning more: http://ebenezerglennorphanage.org/#/welcome

                Below is the full story of Dahicha, from birth until now. A huge thank you to Mrs. Marla Drowley for writing her full story and sending it to me.


Dahicha Decius was born on January 27, 2013. She was two days old when brought to the orphanage. Uncle, brother to the dad, brought her; said the mother died during birth. Found out later that the mother had pushed for over four hours and finally collapsed as the baby came out. Dahicha did not cry so they thought she was dead too. They cut the umbilical cord with an unsterile knife and put the bodies to the side and began mourning. A couple hours later someone walked by and saw Dahicha moving. They immediately picked her up and came to EGO (Ebenezer Glenn Orphanage). After the paperwork was completed (receiving copies of mother's death certificate and baby's birth certificate) we had the uncle and witness sign the forms and we received her. I was away from the orphanage until 2:30 that afternoon, but when I got back I went looking for the new baby. I found her sleeping and all covered up. I undressed her and did a once over. When I came to the dressing around the umbilical area it stunk and the more I uncovered the worse it got. In the middle of my exam Dahicha went into a seizure. I immediately took her to the nurse we have from the orphanage; she cleaned the area around the umbilical cord, but when Dahicha had another seizure she felt that we needed to get her to the hospital. We took her to the closest hospital, but they were not equipped for peds. We got an IV started and kept her overnight until we could transport her the next morning to St. Marc. There was an American Doctor from Toledo, OH on staff who said she had Neonatal Tetanus and immediately began giving her prescription medication. She said the next 24 hours would tell whether she would live or not. She survived and was released 14 days later. She still had not cried up to this point and had not taken a bottle. After we got her back to the orphanage we began trying to get her to take a bottle. It was very tedious, but finally we got her to begin to suck. Three weeks later she came down with pneumonia - which would be the first of seven episodes of aspirated pneumonia. Each time she got worse and worse. In April of 2014 while she was once again hospitalized in Port-au-Prince they placed a feeding tube and told us we needed to see an ENT Specialist. Sure enough her adenoids were blocking her passage and had to be removed, but that didn't happen until May 19th.  Then on August 12th she was hospitalized once more for pneumonia, but by the time they admitted her she was unresponsive and gray in color. They ended up drilling into her leg and pushing fluids through in her bone marrow. Finally 21 hours later they got an IV started. Three weeks later they placed a G-Tube into her stomach and we were released. In October of this year we got a medical visa approved to come to Michigan where she saw a Peds doctor at DeVos Children's hospital. They ran a UGI-xray and a barum swallow test to determine how she was aspirating and found out that she was not refluxing, so no additional surgery was necessary. However, she would hold food in the back of her month for up to 19 seconds before swallowing; and any consistency thinner than honey was aspirated. So they saw us the following week and we received physical therapy exercises to do with her at home to help improve her swallowing. She continuing her g-tube feedings with new formula that has fiber and she has gained seven pounds since August.

 

During all of this Dahicha was seen by a Neurologist here in Haiti and he prescribed her on Pheonbarbital back in July of 2013; prior to that she had been on Tegritol 2%. They have no way of testing phenobarbital levels in the blood here in Haiti; so we had it tested while we were in Michigan. However, we came back to Haiti before getting the results. Dahicha spams several times in an hour, but only seizures maybe once or twice a day and some times can go a couple of days without a seizure. Her seizures are where she straightens her limbs, eyes roll around and she screams very loudly like she is in pain. She was finally placed on baclofen by the doctor last week, to help with her spasms. We are hoping to change her phenobarbital to something else non-brain inhibiting, such as Keprra or Onfi. But I don't know if we can even get these meds here in Haiti.

 

Recent photo of Dahicha in her new stroller/chair donated by a family in Texas.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Haiti Mon Amour Part II

I want to apologize for it taking so long to get Part II out. I got caught up in school as well as an injury to my shoulder that had me in a sling for awhile. But better late than never. I hope you can find some meaningfulness in this post. Part III will be out within a couple weeks. Also, I know that I said I'd include the story of the baby I helped in Haiti in Part II, but I've decided she deserves her own post because I have a lot to say about that story, as well as the incredible people who run the orphanage that she lives at.

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Round 2

I was feeling rather refreshed (albeit also rather sun-burnt) after our day off on Tuesday where we got to see a side of Haiti that I've never been able to see before; the luxurious, touristy Haiti. We went to an incredible hotel where we swam and laid out in the sun for a bit too long. So long that when I was woken up Wednesday morning at about 4:00AM to assist in relocating a dislocated hip, I nearly passed out from dehydration. If I hadn't recognized I was about to pass out, I would have become a patient myself.




TouchĂ© Haiti. 

Haiti:2
Jesse: 0

But like I’ve said before, no matter how many times Haiti knocks me down, I get back up. This time though, that statement was a lot more literal than figurative. After a couple minutes on the ground, I drank a lot of water, went back to sleep, and arouse for my shift a few hours later feeling much better. As I stepped out for my shift, I was looking forward to getting back to what I truly came here for; to try to help people and win a round. Unfortunately, like I mentioned back in my first post, sometimes there’s nothing we can do to win. Round 3 against Haiti was exactly that.

Round 3

         Wednesday and Thursday were two of the busiest days that I've ever had while I was in Haiti. To be completely honest, in my mind those two days are blended into one very long day. So I’ll be honest, I don’t necessarily remember the order that these events happened or if they happened on Wednesday or Thursday. With that being said, I do clearly remember this next round happening around noon on Wednesday. It was the heat of the day (around 100 degrees outside) and I was sitting on the ramp outside of triage when an ambulance came driving up through the gates. At first I thought we were going to have another patient, but they just needed the CT scanner, which is at the back of the hospital complex. A Haitian EMT and I helped direct the ambulance to the scanner. When I went to help get the patient out, what I saw was not very comforting. Anyone who is in the medical field knows that you can walk into a scene, see the patient, and within a couple seconds, determine whether this patient is in critical shape or not. The second I saw this woman, I knew she was in critical shape. The first thing that I noticed was the “foam” coming out of her mouth. Next I noticed she was completely unresponsive and appeared to be seizing uncontrollably. She was in bad shape. And it really didn’t help that she was outside in extremely hot weather. We needed to get her to the CT scanner as quickly as possible. Unfortunately, the scanner was in use at that moment. So the patient waiting in the blazing hot ambulance until the scanner was ready. Once the scanner was ready we brought this woman into the room and left. I figured my job was done. The ambulance drivers were with her and she was only here to get a CT. After the CT they were going to take her back to the hospital she was originally at. But this is Haiti. And in Haiti, more often than not things don’t go as planned. So as I was taking a break in my room and a Haitian EMT came in looking for “Dr. Abelson”, I knew something was wrong. What he said next was exactly what I was hoping I wouldn’t hear: “The patient has stopped breathing”.
      Instantly I sprung up. My break was over. I was ready for the fight. I left my air conditioned room and went back out to face Haiti. Round 3 had begun. I quickly found Dr. Abelson and we ran to the CT scanner where sure enough, the patient was no longer breathing. Immediately Dr. Abelson ordered CPR to be started. This was no longer their patient. This was our patient and our deal now. We were responsible for her. Her life was in our hands now. As we struggled to find the BVM to give her respirations, someone started performing CPR. But there was no crash cart in the CT room. This patient needed to be in the ER, which was across the complex. At least 100 yards away. And she needed to be put onto a stretcher to be moved there. And she had to be lowered from the scanner. All of this had to be done while we served as her heart and lungs, delivering chest compressions and breaths through a BVM that we finally found. It was the definition of chaos. But as I have now seen so many times, in times of chaos and split-second decisions, there is always one person who stands out as the voice of calm and reason. That man happens to be my role-model and a rather wise man, Dr. Abelson. Oh and did I mention he’s also my dad? Dr. Abelson quickly ordered one person to continue doing compressions and another person to keep delivering breaths while the rest of us moved the patient to the stretcher and down the lift from the scanner to the ground. As we rolled the patient across the courtyard with my brother running next to the stretcher doing compressions, it felt like I was in a movie. Except this movie didn’t have a happy ending. Despite our best efforts, there was nothing we could do. This one was out of our hands. After about 20-30 minutes of our best efforts of CPR, we pronounced her. What we didn’t realize until later was that just a couple weeks earlier, this woman was living her life and expecting another kid. Tragically something went wrong with the pregnancy and the fetus died. This most likely caused this woman to have an infection and ultimately pass away. 2 deaths. 2 deaths that could have been avoided with modern medicine and health care. How do I know that? Because the maternal mortality rate in Haiti is 15 times higher than in the United States and 190 (yes that says 190) times higher than in Israel. I think Haiti gets 2 points for this round.

Haiti: 4
Jesse: 0

 Round 4

           I think that this round has to be the most heart-wrenching round that I experienced in Haiti. It was the busiest day I've had in Haiti and for some reason, the pediatric ward was extremely busy. So busy that by mid-day, there were absolutely no beds left. So when a child, who was the most malnourished child I have ever seen came into triage, we had no options. I don’t exactly remember how old this child was but she was at least 1 year old yet she looked like a newborn. I’d say this child was easily less than 24 inches in height and probably weighed about 10 pounds. This child needed fluids. And food. And a bed. But there was nothing that we could do. All our beds were full. Her breaths were shallow and short. She needed oxygen and antibiotics. But we couldn’t take her. Every part of me wanted to help them. I wanted to scream. I was sad. I was angry. But worst of all, I was helpless. There was nothing I could do. And that was the hardest part. So we had to turn them away. We told them of another hospital that may be able to take her in but we all knew. As I watched this family walk out, I think everyone knew. No one wanted to say it, but that child wasn’t going to make it. I wanted to cry. Later, I did. I think we all did. But the worst thing about that, is that what I had experienced wasn’t unusual. In fact, it’s pretty common. As Paul Farmer would say, that’s a ‘stupid death’. One that’s completely unavoidable. I will never forget the faces on the family as they walked out. The expression of helplessness and desperation. I get it Haiti. You’re the stronger one. But please, can you just once let me win a round?

Haiti: 5
Jesse: 0

I’m going to end this blog post here. I’ll have a 3rd one (I promise it’ll be less depressing) in the next couple weeks. I just wanted to end by saying, if there’s one thing to take away from these posts is that I want people to realize just how lucky they are. I’m not trying to make anyone feel bad that they’re well off compared to the much of the world. What I want is for people to realize that and appreciate it. Appreciate that you have a roof over your head. Appreciate that you have access to clean water. That you can take a hot shower whenever you want. But most of all, appreciate the people around you. Because you never know when they won’t be there anymore. Sometime I want you to just stop what you’re doing, put your phone or laptop or IPod down and take a good look around you. Realize how lucky you are and how much of a fragile gift life is. And then keep going about your day and appreciate the fact that you’re alive and well. I promise, it'll make your day a whole lot more meaningful.



R.I.P. Jerry

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Haiti Mon Amour Part I

I’m splitting up my blog post of Haiti into 3 different parts. I have a lot to say about my last trip and I don’t want to overdo it by writing one big post. Part I will be the introduction and the first story. Part II will be the rest of the stories from Haiti, including the baby I attempted to help save, Dahicha, and Part III will be about the picture taken of me performing CPR. I’ll probably upload the posts about a week apart.

Never have the words “it’s the little things that count” been more true than on this trip in Haiti. In a constant battle that have worse odds than any casino game, you need to take the small victories in order to survive here. Working here is like a game of cards. No matter how skilled you are, sometimes you are just dealt a bad hand of cards that make it impossible to win. In Haiti, it’s no different. Sometimes patients come in with injuries so extensive or diseases in such an advanced stage that there is nothing that can possibly be done. That happens everywhere. Those aren't the hardest ones. The hardest ones are the ones where you have a chance. Where you’re dealt a hand that looks good, but the dealer just gets a better hand than you or you take a risk that doesn't pan out. Those are the hardest ones. The ones that we have a chance to help but for whatever reason, be it a lack of money, tests, beds, materials, or medicine, we lose. In the game of life and death here, there’s no margin for error. You can be the most skilled doctor in the world, but Haiti will always have the odds in the battle. A battle where the stakes are life or death. I find it very difficult to explain what we're up against here to other people so to put what we’re dealing with in Haiti in numbers, here are some stats about Haiti.

  • Haiti is the poorest country in the Western Hemisphere. It’s GDP per capita is $820. The GDP per capita of the United States is over $53,000.
  • Over 50% of the 10 million citizens in Haiti live off of less than $1/day.
  • Over 80% of the 10 million citizens in Haiti live off of less than $2/day.
  • About 40% of Haiti does not have access to clean drinking water.
  • About 2% of Haitians between the ages of 15 and 49 are infected with HIV/AIDS, among the highest rates in the Caribbean.

Seeing this, it’s no wonder you need to rely on the few good things in order to survive here, no matter how small they are. I’m not coming here thinking I can change Haiti. I’m coming here to help in the little bit that I am able to do.
 
He who saves a life saves a whole world

There’s nothing I can do in a week to change this country. But that doesn't mean I’m useless. Every little thing that I do, that anyone does, makes a difference. Like a puzzle, every little piece that is put together counts. Eventually, put enough tiny pieces together, and these pieces that were once spread everywhere and formed nothing, now create a finished piece of art. The little things, like holding a baby and making it smile or even helping save the life of a special needs baby makes a difference. Those are the victories. Those few times where you can stare right into the eyes of Haiti and say "I win." The reason we fight an opponent so much stronger and bigger than us. The reason we get knocked down 100 times, but we always get right back up. Because that one victory, no matter how small it is, makes everything worth it.



Round 1

It didn't take long for Haiti to throw the first punch. We got into Haiti on a Saturday morning and as soon as I stepped off the plane, I could tell I was in Haiti. It was 10 in the morning and the temperatures were already creeping towards triple digits. Haiti gave us a nice, warm, sweaty welcome. Luckily, we didn't have to start our shifts until the next day. At 7AM on Sunday I was outside, waiting for patients to be brought to me. For a Sunday, it was a rather busy day. I saw quite a few patients but there was nothing too serious right away. And then that all changed. On the way to Haiti, I had wondered when and if I was going to have to perform CPR on this trip. That answer came pretty quickly.

 
Sometime in the afternoon, a car came driving in, honking incessantly at the gate. Immediately she was let into the compound and a Haitian EMT went to go see what the problem was. Instantly he looked up at me, and motioned me over to help. As I jogged over next to him, I saw exactly what I had hoped not to see. A bloodied woman in the back seat of the car who appeared to be unconscious. I jumped into the backseat of the car and the EMT looked at me and bluntly said “I don’t think she’s breathing”. Adrenaline rushed through my body as I realized that Haiti had just thrown the first punch. The fight had already started, and Haiti was going to show no mercy, even on my first shift there. Quickly, I listened for signs of breathing as I tried to find a pulse. Nothing. What next? Everyone was looking at me for the call. My mind was rushing. I tried to stay calm. Take things one step at a time, Jesse. Step back for half a second and analyze the situation. What’s going on? There is a middle-aged woman in the back of a car, bloodied and not breathing. But we were in the middle of the compound, with 100 degree weather and dozens of curious Haitian eyes beaming down on us. Clearly CPR needed to be started. The doctor needed to be found. She needed to be transported to the emergency room STAT. All eyes were on me for the next move. As the adrenaline rushed through my veins, I looked at the Haitian EMTs and told them to get her out of the car, onto a stretcher and into the ER to start CPR. I was going to go find the doctor.
As I turned and ran through the hospital, I saw nothing but what was in front of me. Haiti had struck first, and had struck mightily. That first punch stunned me, but I had recovered and I wasn’t going down without a fight. Quickly, I found the doctor and ran back to help the Haitian EMTs who were just then getting her out of the car. We quickly got her onto a stretcher and began CPR while we were still wheeling her into the ER. With sweat dripping down my forehead, I quickly got in position and took over doing CPR. For the next 2 minutes, I was going to be her heart. I was the only thing keeping her blood pumping. 2 minutes later, someone took over CPR for me and I became her lungs, breathing for her through a BVM device. I switched back and forth between being her heart and her lungs but alas, even with CPR, after about 20 minutes, the ultrasound of her heart showed no cardiac rhythm. We ceased CPR and the time of death was called. It wasn't until later that we got the kicker. This was the third hospital she had been to after being hit by a car. She was alive at the other two, but they turned her away because her condition was too severe. They didn’t even try to stabilize her. By the time she had gotten to our hospital, it was too late. That was another person dead in Haiti that could have been saved in the States. A family now must bury their loved one. Like so many deaths in Haiti, it could have been prevented had it happened somewhere else. TouchĂ© Haiti, you have taken round 1.


Haiti 1
Us 0

It was a hard loss to swallow, Haiti really knocked me down in the first round, but I quickly regained my composure and prepared myself for round 2. The rest of Sunday and Monday were relatively quiet and Tuesday we had our day off, but as soon as Wednesday rolled around, Haiti came out swinging. The rest of the week was a non-stop boxing match between Haiti and me. This fight went many more rounds, but I was not about to give up and roll over. No, I was there to fight. Because it doesn’t matter how many times you get knocked down, what matters is how many times you get back up. Because if I never get back up, I will never win a round.


To Be Continued.

Monday, August 12, 2013

Just another day in Haiti

I want to make it clear, Haiti and what I've gone through so far is nothing compared to what the Haitians have had to go through in recent years. It's nothing compared to what my brother and father have gone through in their previous trips to Haiti. There have been some great moments, but there have also been moments like what you will soon read about. I choose to write about it because it is important for people to know what goes on here and just how bad the situation is here. I am not here to brag about my experiences and I am not writing to impress anyone with my stories. I write to relieve my stress and to show you a part of the world that you may otherwise not see. If you choose to read it, that's great. If not, that's fine also. So without further ado, here is my story.


I want to give you a warning before you continue reading. From this point on there's no good news. No uplifting stories. And no pretty little message that wraps up this post with a nice smile on your face. No. There's nothing uplifting here. If you are queasy or feint of heart, I would recommend stopping here. Otherwise...welcome to my hell for the next week.
As I walk out to my 6AM shift, my second shift here in Haiti, the first thing I notice is the heat. The sun hadn't risen yet I was still sweating as soon as I walked out of my room. As I go on shift, I hope that since it's Sunday, it will be a nice, quiet day which for the first half I was right. The morning started off easy enough with a couple patients with cuts and aches. Then nothing. For hours. For hours we had no patients, no screaming, no anything. It was quiet. Too quiet. As I sat up on the roof with my dad and asked him questions about what I saw the previous day I make the mistake of mentioning that I have yet to see the hell that he's spoken so much about. Big mistake. Because somewhere up above, someone decided it was time for Haiti to rear its ugly face at me and the hospital. 
I was in triage when it began. I was holding the hand of a scared little boy who was getting a cut on his leg sewn up when one of the Haitian EMTs ran up to the triage and tells me "Dr. Sam needs your help. It's an emergency." Now when I say he ran, I legitimately mean he ran. That is never a good sign. I could tell right away something serious was happening. Not wanting to leave the little boy alone, I told the Haitian EMT to come over here and hold his hand. Once the little boy was off my hands, I quickly rushed over to the Emergency Room where I saw exactly what I was hoping not to see. It was the sight of compressions being done that first caught my eye. A CPR patient. Putting all my emotions aside, I ran over and quickly took over doing compression for the exhausted nurse. As I did compressions, I tried to figure out what was going on and where we were in the CPR process. I had gotten there pretty quick so I didn't miss too much CPR.
After a couple minutes, more people showed up and I switched out compressions with my brother. As I took over BVMing (Bag, Valve, Mask. Basically the way we breathe for a CPR patient) our patient, it was clear there the Bag was not working. The bag, which pushes air into the patients airway was not refilling properly. Now for those of you who have never done CPR, it's extremely stressful even if everything goes right. When something goes wrong during CPR, it gets bad. It becomes chaos. There were people left and right telling me different things while the Haitian EMT frantically searched for another bag. After a few minutes he found one and we switched bags. Unfortunately, the bag didn't particularly matter. We could not get his airway open due to the copious amounts of throw up that was coming out every time his chest was compressed. It was practically useless. After a good 10-20 minutes, we called it. There was nothing more we could do. We ceased CPR and it was immediately on to the next patient. As the Haitian EMT and I began suturing our new patient, the news was broken to the wife about her husband who had just died. Outside the triage where I was, she began screaming. She fell to the ground in disbelief and began rolling on the ground, screaming and crying. We knew. No words were needing to describe the grief she was going through. I just stood there, resisting the urge to cry and trying to stay professional. This woman had just lost her husband. A man only in his late 20's. Gone. She continued to roll on the ground, so much that it became dangerous for her. The Haitian EMT and I grabbed a C-collar and as he held her as still as possible, I quickly applied the C-collar to her. I could see the pain in her eyes. The disbelief. The anger. But most of all, the sadness. We grabbed the pad off a stretcher and attempted as best we could to move her onto the pad so that she didn't hurt herself anymore. We finally got her onto a bench where she continued to cry and scream, but thankfully she had stopped rolling on the ground. It was after that I decided I needed a little break. But as I walked through the ER on the way to my room, the Haitian translator told me he needed my help.
I didn't want to say no to helping. After all, that is what I came here for. But what I was helping with, I was not prepared for. Our task: move the CPR patient's body to the "morgue". "Simple enough", I thought. We covered the body in a sheet, his feet tied to each other sticking out of the sheet. It looked like a prop from any medical show you may watch. We wheeled him out of the ER and down the ramp, the eyes of the Haitian families glued to us, wondering what had happened. Many of them feeling the pain themselves of their loved ones that had passed away in recent years. We wheeled the body passed them and quickly turned as to avoid the grieving wife. We took the body down to the end of the complex and put him next to an outhouse. That was it. That was the morgue. Outside of an unused building at the end of the complex. We just left him there. But as I turned around to go back, the Haitian translator and I both spotted something. Something sitting on top of a garbage can. It looked to be about the length of my arm. One more warning. This is the point where you may want to stop reading. I promise you, you get the point from the first half of the story. From here on is not necessary for you to read but I'm going to continue because it is important for people to know the hell that we see here.

Sam (the Haitian translator) and I walked over to this object. I think in the back of my mind I knew what it was the whole time, I just didn't want to believe it. Sam, on the other hand knew what it was the whole time but had to double check. So he grabbed this bundle of blankets and he slowly removed the top of the blanket as we cautiously peered in. I saw what I knew I was going to see, but was in no way ready to see it. There's nothing you can do to prepare yourself for that. As we pulled away the blanket, a face appeared. It was the face of a baby. The cold, lifeless face of a baby, not more than a few months old. Immediately I turned away but I saw it long enough. A baby girl. He moved her closer to the "morgue" and we left. The only words that I was able to form were "It's a tough job sometimes" to which he responded "all the time".

For the time being I put the baby behind me and began helping other patients when suddenly another EMT comes running into the ER, telling everyone we have a patient with gunshot wounds. So I run outside where I see this patient, still conscious, in the back of a car, bleeding everywhere. We quickly get him onto a bed where we take in into the ER. As we cut off his blood-soaked clothes, he tells us he was shot twice. Once in the neck and once in the butt. We rip off the clothes which reveal two bullet holes, bleeding a significant amount. We quickly get his vitals and get pressure on the wounds. After 15 minutes of stabilizing him, I take him to get X-rayed where you could see that one bullet was lodged in his hip while the other one was in his right cheek. Luckily he had stabilized and was not in immediate danger of dying. Unfortunately, I learned today that he was transferred to another hospital after realizing that he would not be able to afford our hospital, the CT scan, or even a possible life-saving surgery. After an hour of caring for him, we were done. It was 4 P.M. and I was supposed to have been done two hours ago. But in Haiti, nothing ever goes as planned. I went back to my bed and collapsed for a few hours, tired of the hell I had gone through the previous 5 hours.

3 days complete. 5 more shifts to go. This is the hell I chose to come to. This is the hell I want to be in. This is the hell my dad was talking about. I've met some amazing people here so far and learned a ton about medicine...and it's only day 3. I've also seen more gruesome and disgusting things than I care to see, but that's what I signed up for. This is my life for the week. The past shift I had was much better, although we did have another gunshot wound to the neck/face.

I guess if I had to wrap this up nicely with a nice message, it would be to take a second and look around you. Realize just how lucky you are to be living where you are, in good health, and with people you love around you. And cherish those people you love. Go give them a hug and tell them you love them. Because at any moment, just like the wife of the CPR patient, everything you love can be taken from you in an instant. Will have another update soon. Hope this wasn't too disturbing. Goodnight.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Dear Israel, I love you

My most recent blog post is featured on tcjewfolk.com. To view it, please follow this link:http://tcjewfolk.com/dear-israel/

Ever since I first met you when I was 12 I knew there was something between us. It wasn’t until I took a chance on you that I realized how special our relationship truly is. These past nine months of getting to know you have been the most amazing Nine months of my life. Our relationship only grew stronger and stronger as time went on. You have never let me down. Every time I think you can’t get any better, you surprise me with something unique and incredible that makes me fall deeper and deeper in love with you. Over these past nine months you have opened yourself up to me and allowed me to see who you really are. Not the ugly that is portrayed in the media but at the same time not the utopian land many Jews claim to ‘know’ and ‘love’. No. Israel, I know who you really are and while you are not perfect, I love every part of you. - See more at: http://tcjewfolk.com/dear-israel/#sthash.7acbT0bV.dpuf

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